Things I need to Work On

I think people try to not focus so much on their flaws, who wants to go through life constantly seeing the negative in their life? But sometimes, its imperative that we look inside ourselves, to see what others see, or even what we hide from others. Sometimes its the things that not one can see that are the most poisonous.

I find I am a mass of complex and interweaving components, that are usually hard to separate and untangle. For instance, many people tell me that I am far too trusting and forgive people too easily. And this is true. I have a tendency to trust, not only easily, but completely, and to forgive people that have hurt me, even in astronomical ways.

So, it doesn't make sense to me, in a way, that one of the things I really need to work hard on is trusting people right now. There are certain things in my life right now that I have a lot of trouble trusting, and they're things, that, if I'm being logical, I should have no trouble trusting. So I don't know why I let it freak me out, and take control. I don't want to be un-trusting, in fact, the very opposite. But I don't know how to fix it yet and that really sucks. I hate feeling like this.