If You Were Here

I'm stealing this idea from my super smart and savvy cousin, Elena, because I really like the thought and intention behind it, so here it is. 10 Things I feel like telling 10 different people in my life at this present moment in time:

1. I am very sorry that things ended up like this, I don't know why we can't move past it and remain friends, but I am resigned to the fact that this is how it will be.

2. I am so glad that we are friends, you have no idea how much you mean to me and how much crap in my life you've helped me wade through. You are one of the few people I know without a doubt that I can rely on at any time for any thing.

3. It pains me the you are so immature that you let something so stupid come between us and ruin our friendship. But I've decided that I don't need someone like you in my life, and wish you the best of everything.

4. When I first met you, I had no idea that we would get along so well. I'm so glad that we were roommates for my last year in college, I never had as much fun studying as I did when we had our crazy late nights together.

5. You intimidated me when we first met! But I am so glad that I got over that and talked to you in Poli Sci. You were definitely one of the few people I trusted Senior year and I'm glad that even though you're so damn far away now, that we remain great friends, and I can't wait to come visit you!

6. We fight more than anyone I know, but no matter what you're always my best friend and I think you know that.

7. I didn't know that we would reconnect after Jr. High/High School, but I am so glad that we did. Our coffee dates have been wonderful and I can't tell you how excited I am to be in your wedding!

8. I don't know if I ever told you how truly I felt betrayed by you, but its something that still bothers me to this day. Which is why I no longer consider you a friend, talk to you, etc. You probably think its no big deal, you probably don't even realize that I'm upset, but I think its actually better this way. You never were the type of person to realize when you were wrong and apologize.

9. Some people call you shady, some don't think you're a good friend. Most days you're an interesting character. But even though I've seen your "Jackass Side", I've seen the "Soft Side" and you've been there for me when I had no one else. I'll always be grateful for that and for introducing me to someone I've grown very close to.

10. I don't even know how to truly write what I want to say about you. You have become so special to me. You're the best friend I've ever had and you've taught me what a good relationship is all about. You make it so easy for me to be myself and to speak my mind, and I love you more than I could put into words. You make me smile every day. I am so glad that you are in my life and hope it stays that way.